Now that the crazyness of May is pretty much over, I keep thinking about what comes next. I have alot of things going on in my mind but I'm just not sure where to go with them all. Maybe rambling about it here will help. You never know....
1.) I need to get some motivation to lose some wieght and get healthier. It just freaks me out that I'm nearing 200 pounds and I NEED to get healthier. I just feel stuck. I can't cook anything unless it comes from a box and I know that stuff isn't very healthy. I also need to work out, but that never seems to last more than a day or two. I'm trying to take it slowly, and start by working out. Not much, just about 15 minutes a day with the MyFitness Coach on Wii. I'll try to add some Just Dance in too, for some extra cardio. I hope I can stick with it. I'm not sure WHY I can't...I just can't. Hell, I can't even get myself to clean the house...let alone actually exercise.
2.) I would like to find a job for during next school year. Joey will be in kindergarten and I'll have from 8-3 with no kids! What will I do? It would be nice to help make some money, maybe to save it all for vacations or something fun like that. BUT I am having a hard time with this also because I pretty much can't work a regular job. I need to be able to be home when the kids are here, which includes early release days, holidays, weekends and the summer! Pretty much the only place that would work for this is the school...but I don't have any college and I'm afraid I'd need some college to be able to work at the school. I have very little confidence in myself since I haven't worked since shortly after Joey was born...about 5 years!! I shouldnt though. I've gotten every job I've ever interviewed for. But still....
3.) Thinking about working at the school makes me think maybe I should get some sort of college degree. But...how would I pay for it? No idea. What should I study? Again...no idea. I was never good at school, so I'm sure I probably wont' be any good at college either. Especially if they expect you do to math!
4.) The Breast Cancer 3-Day. I really want to do this walk BUT each person has to raise $2300. I just annoyed the crap out of everyone for about 8 months and only raised about $600 for the Race for a Cure on Mother's Day. Plus with all of the above things going on, I keep thinking maybe I should get everything else straight first....THEN think about adding such a large commitment.
I think when it comes right down to it, I have NO confidence in myself to do any of the things I have going on. I feel like I can't do any of it. I guess I just have to find the motivation with in and stop fighting with myself. But will that ever happen?? Only time will tell.
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Work as a Certificated substitute in the school district. You can just take jobs that work with hours the kids are in school. That is what I applied for since my letters of recommendation are too old. I plan on only subbing in their school, even. You can be super picky. Even if you only make $100 a month, it's still $100 and makes a HUGE difference. You're welcome for my 2 cents. :-)
ReplyDeleteCan you sub with out any sort of certifications/degrees?
ReplyDeleteHow many times do I have to check this for a new post before there is one? Heheheheheh :-)
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